My Heart Plays The Cello
For all the times I have abandoned myself. All the times I’ve abandoned them; it might be easier to count the times they’ve felt seen by me. I manage a regurgitated echo of their pain and it leaves my throat…
Category: self development
my journey into healing trauma, outdated and misaligned beliefs, core wounds, my inner child, negative thought patterns and the rest
NeuroGraphica – A Way To Access The Subconscious
Composition I notice a lot of self judgment. My ‘Perfectionist’ swiftly assures me they are there and stepping up. “You’re not doing it right”. “You’re going to fail the assignment”. I see the lines I draw but they are tainted…
The Silence of Letting Go
I feel you. I try to let go and realise I’m not holding on. And I wonder why you’re still with me. I’ve never known a person so deeply entwined. I loved you so much. Lingering like a ghost. We…
The Dark Night of Us
Has it really been that long since I posted last? So much has happened… The past 9 months have kicked my arse. I ended up losing myself completely in my most recent monogamous relationship and nearly drowning in an ocean…
Stuck
I slowly surface from the depths of slumber and I’m greeted by a bright, playful sunlight. It strokes my skin and warms my yawning heart. Today feels like a good day. I slowly turn and feel the heat turn to…
A mile in your shoes
Programmed to the beat of your heart; it is my marching sound. I try and break free, to breathe my own air, to sit within the void, but the stillness suffocates my lungs. Fear. Loneliness. Trauma. Denial. Avoidance. Worth. All…
Tears & Rain
I can’t discern my tears from the droplets of rain cascading down my cheeks; both are warmed by the June sun rising behind the cityscape through my drenched lashes. My soul screams for life. At the top of its lungs…