My Heart Plays The Cello
For all the times I have abandoned myself. All the times I’ve abandoned them; it might be easier to count the times they’ve felt seen by me. I manage a regurgitated echo of their pain and it leaves my throat…
Category: relationships
my journey into understanding and navigating relationships
The Silence of Letting Go
I feel you. I try to let go and realise I’m not holding on. And I wonder why you’re still with me. I’ve never known a person so deeply entwined. I loved you so much. Lingering like a ghost. We…
When the Sky Falls
I wrote this 6th October 2020. The water reflects a monsterUgly and brokenArmoured skin too old to hold the scarsA mind trapped, tumultuously, behind barsScratch the surface, maybe I’ll see the light you seeBut to me I’ll just beWasting my…
The Dark Night of Us
Has it really been that long since I posted last? So much has happened… The past 9 months have kicked my arse. I ended up losing myself completely in my most recent monogamous relationship and nearly drowning in an ocean…
A mile in your shoes
Programmed to the beat of your heart; it is my marching sound. I try and break free, to breathe my own air, to sit within the void, but the stillness suffocates my lungs. Fear. Loneliness. Trauma. Denial. Avoidance. Worth. All…